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The scent of you, it calms my heart

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Created on 2003-06-05 09:17:44 (#1099421), last updated 2005-08-14

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Name:	<3
Birthdate:	05-05
Location:	Burlington, New Jersey, United States
Website:	myspacer

Bio

I want to be the meaning that unsettles you

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I am the girl who laughs to hide the pain.
I am the artist, the writier, the intellectual,
the beauty queen, the activist.
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Who am I? I was hoping you'd tell me.
I'm a hopeless cynic. I'm a scarred beauty. A fading light.
I'm a loner. I'm an artist. I'm a poet.
I'm somewhat idealistic. Somewhat disappointed.
I'm a dreamer. I am sometimes bored.
I'm a weirdo. I am insane. And sometimes cruel.
Though never sadistic, no matter what people say.
But maybe, just maybe, I'm just scared.
I'm an actor. I'm a bitch. I'm hurting. I am alive.
But contrary to popular belief I do have feelings.
What am I? I was hoping you'd know.
I'm all about music. Still. And memmories. And love.
But it doesn't matter. Nothing does.

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Every day I wake up thrown &
I am thrown at the universe.
One day I'd like to wake up throwing things at it instead.

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I know theres words that we will ~~never~~ speak
and the questions cant be answered easily
but I wanted to be easy so
nod your head if the plans have change
shake it, love, they stayed the same
smile at me and I will stay
start to cry and I'll go away
just please dont leave me guessing.

♥ the random boy who stole my heart.

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You wanna hurt me? Go ahead&try.
I'll roll it off my back&make you see it through my eyes.
If I had just one wish come true, it's to never be like you.
You wanna play me?; Your plastic games.
I've seen them a million times&it always feels the same.
&then you find out you're all alone; picking up the pieces from the shadows of your broken home.
I never knew anyone was just as cold as you.
I never knew anyone was just as numb as you.

♥

How sad - this is what your life has been reduced to -
a single room apartment containing no more than a mattress.
The strings have been removed from the blinds and all the outlets have been painted over.
The television screen is streaked with blood smeared from your knuckles as you were trying to punch it out
but you underestimated its strength,
or maybe you just weren't trying hard enough.

Startled by a knock

at the door you rise for the first time in two days to answer, but you can only greet the visitor with one short statement. Hello my first name is distance and I really don't care if I never wake up again. Hello my name is distance and I really don't care if I never wake up again.

Hello I really don't care if I never wake up again.
I really don't care if
I never wake up again.